So, tonight was the first run-through (off-book) of Act I.
I must admit, when I first arrived at the rehearsal space, I was so nervous that I thought I was going to be sick. Literally. In my first song (which sets up the show and tells the audience who Queenie is), I sang that I was a singer in Vaudeville instead of a dancer. It could have seriously tanked from there, but I am in the midst of such a supportive cast and creative team that it didn't tank at all...and, as a matter of fact, it went better than I ever would have imagined. I left the rehearsal space utterly exhausted physically, mentally and emotionally, but also exhilarated and excited about next week in the theatre space.
As I've mentioned before, I am an actor who sings and moves, not (necessarily) a singer/dancer who acts. Musical theatre is not what I'm "known" for (if I'm known for anything at all), but I've always aspired to work in musicals. And now I'm getting my chance--and then some! I keep telling people, "I never shut up," and it's true; I sing in 21 of the 33 songs. Someone give me an "OY!" I'm not sure that I would call what I'm doing dancing, yet, but I'm working on it!
I absolutely adore every minute of it, though. I am having the time of my life--and I am learning SO much that I would never have been able to learn anywhere else. It helps that I am surrounded by some top-notch musical theatre performers; they are so good to me, and I really feel like everyone's got my back. Considering the talent in the room, it could be filled with a bunch of pills, but it's not; the cast is filled with talented, supportive, friendly, funny, wonderful people, and I think that is why I am falling so in love with this work.
Tonight gave me a vision of where we are going...and we are heading down an incredibly interesting, cool, fabulous path. This party is absolutely wild, and the people in it are interesting, scary, funny, endearing, sad, lovely, sexy and gorgeous.
Next week we move into the theatre space to begin running the whole show--and I cannot wait! Next week cannot get here soon enough for me. Unfortunately, I've got to cool my heels until Monday because I'm not called until then. I will spend my time learning lines and music and dancing around my house (each of the kids had a comment about me being in my dancing shoes when they came home from school, and I was thinking, "You should have seen me earlier!")
Right now there is no place I'd rather be than with these people, in this show, getting ready to move into the theatre. At this moment in time, I feel so confident in Queenie's shoes, and just like her I feel like, "This is what I was born to do!"
No limits. No boundaries. No compromise.